Heart Broken

Hi everyone -

I'm new here, I think it is time that I found some online migraneurs to talk to since I don't know any in real life.

I have had a really rough week. I had a 5 month long headache starting last October that nearly made me drop out of graduate school and took away many thing that I enjoyed in life. I got it under control this March with beta blockers, but last Wednesday the headache came back.

I feel like my heart is breaking going back into this knowing all that I will lose. I'm sitting here sobbing trying not to wake my new roommate (who doesn't know much about the headaches). I don't tell my parents much about this because I know it will hurt them more than it hurts me and my boyfriend is in another country and sick of hearing about my problems anyway.

I was reading some old e-mails from before the migraines started and cannot believe how care-free I used to be. But it was comforting in some way - I can hope that some day my sadness with the migraines will be as foreign to me as my happiness before the migraines is now. I know life changes drastically and I know that this headache will end. I know that having a migraine and being up all night makes me irrationally sad and it will all look better tomorrow. But I just wish someone could give me a hug

Thanks for listening

I am so sorry for your pain my friend but I am very glad that you have reached out. Since the pain has returned have you gone back to see your doc? What do you take when the pain hits? Is he/she a migraine specialist? I am glad you realize that the fatigue does impact how we feel emotionally.......is there someone you can talk to? A sympathetic friend or family member that can give you a hug today..........all of us here are giving you virtual hugs but there is nothing like a big bear hug when we feel so down. I am sorry for this short post but on my way out the door to a doc appointment..............please stay in touch - so many people here understand your pain and frustration. L

I'm so sorry you're going through this, I really feel for you. Can't say much today as I am migraining myself. I went for my first deep water workout last night and woke up with a horrid migraine, hope that wasn't what caused it as it was so much fun.

Just wanted you to know that I care, and hope you feel better soon.

{{{{{Hugs}}}}}

our hearts are all broken too, for you. you are too young, and in school, yet. grad school, i am sure, does not allow the extra time you need when you are wiped out from pain.

echoing another poster, please try to visit another neurologist or at least a doc who has a keen interest in head pain. don't let anyone, doctor or not, ever tell you it's "just a headache". no, it's far more than that.

i'm hopeful that a new doctor's view of your problem will yield you some positive results. if you don't take triptan drugs, have you ever tried them? they have been my lifesaver for the many years they've been on the market. they do work magic for some people here.

dianne (42 years of the monsters, and counting)

Lots of hugs to you. You are not alone. Definitely see a good neurologist.

If you are still having troubles, you can ask for a delay of your studies for medical reasons. It is better to do that than to ruin your grades and reputation if you can't keep up with the demands of grad school. I know that is not what you want to do. But it may be better than the alternative.

Best of luck for finding relief.