Pain Mainagement and Life woes.

Well, I've been lurking around for a while yet. I'm not new, nor am I old. I used to have an account here. But I'm not going to give that name away. I go by Celeste. That should be a hint as to who I am.
I've got this problem. My pain management doctor frigging fired me because of my suicide attempt back a couple months ago. I'm stable now thanks to my psych meds. But he doesn't wish to treat me with pain medications because of my 'psych' doctor there at the hospital that I was being treated at, that is no longer treating me... they both talked to each other about me taking the pain medications for my multiple chronic pain conditions.... and said that I "did not need them because they would make me unstable"... UMMM!!! HELLO FUCKTARDS!!! I KINDA DO!!!
He will only treat me by injections. And that doesn't really help my migraines, just my neck and back pain. -sighs-
This is just one big mess. If my parents weren't doing the things that they were doing this wouldn't have happened.. I should have just turned their asses in a LONG TIME AGO!!!Waited to long I did.
Now my cancer is back and is making my pain a helluva lot worse.
And it's just all going down hill.
The only doctor that gets that is the cancer doc. And my neuro doc. Both can't treat my pain until I get 'released from treatment' from my PM doc. Because of the contract that I signed.
Needless to say.. It's just one big mess. Not happy at all. And, I'm really just relying on my support system here in Garland where I moved to recently where the people I've meet are just totally awesome... I just haven't completely learned to trust them. It's gotten me away from my abusive parents. And the shit in Plano. Alas I've got to go back to Plano for treatment 3 times a week. And that just sucks. But I'm working on something to get the shit transferred here to Garland... so life would be easier so to speak.
I'm going to beat this life back to where it belongs. Meaning get it under control.
But that's all I've got to say. I really just needed to rant to people who would understand... If some of you do indeed do.
Done now. <3's and -hugs-
~c

Hello Winterfea

You certainly sound like you are in a whirlwind of turmoil of late but are working through getting out of it. Hang in there, you can pull out. You get it that when you find yourself in hell, you keep walking. It's great that you found a good group of people that you like and with a little help it makes a big difference. Don't be too angry at what you don't get in life. I found that it is better to get what you 'need' than what you 'want' and that you can't conceive what you don't know. In other words, there are bad things that can happen to you, but there are also some really good things too, and only by taking the steps forward do you find out what they are. When you are down on the bottom, there is only the up.

All the best to you and don't forget to stop and smell the flowers every chance you get.

Angela

Angela is a smart (and strong) woman. Read her post again - well said!

Celeste, you sound like (a) you needed to vent - good vent BTW and (2) you are being wise and strong - making good decisions and taking things one step at a time. Hang in there! It will all come out in the wash - a year from now, your life is going to look very different and MUCH better. I am cheering for you!