Back after a break - rough time

I wasn't a super active forum user, but pretty active. I was off the forums for awhile because I was just having a brutal time over the winter. I am seeing a specialist at Mt Sanai in Toronto in May (after a 6 month wait) and trying to be optimistic about that.

I am in one of those funks where I have been pretty down. I am 36 this summer, and have had migraines since I was 7. At this point, I can't remember what it's like to feel really good. I have more memories of things I missed due to migraines from when I was young than I do good memories.

An added stress is that my girlfriend wants to have kids. It's hard for me to imagine that with the amount of work I miss, and the amount of days I spend completely out of commission. I run into problems earning money, and I run into problems just plain functioning at times. Plus the thought of ever passing on these migraines to someone else scares the living heck out of me. All of this just sounds like excuses to her, but it's legitimate fears for me. I am one of those people who appears pretty positive on the outside, but has days where it's really tough to go on. My body is feeling the effects of this many years of medications. Through all of this one thing I always did was keep in great shape, and now I am finding it difficult to do that. I seem to be very injury prone. So the stress from this has not been helping things.

So, I have a real physical and mental funk to try to work my way out of and am having a real tough time breaking out of it.

Thanks for the chance to vent.

Just wanted to say welcome back and I feel for you. I, too, have been in a funk lately. I do have kids, four kids and it is really hard sometimes b/c I get migraines every day and I watch them have to suffer with me and worry about me. But, the joy they bring is unmatched. So, it's a tough decision you have to make...

Hope you get the help you need..

Michelle